So I haven’t posted about my weight loss in a while. Three months ago I went to see my endocrinologist for my 6 month check up. My PCOS does not allow me to lose weight on my own no matter what I try to do. I have been around the same weight for over 15 years. That being said my doctor decided to put me on a prescription diet pill to see if this will help. I just went for my 3 month follow up and have lost 12.5 pounds. For me it seemed like a crawl. I did not feel that I lost that much weight. Since my doctor is happy with the results she decided to keep me on the pills until my next appointment in December. Hopefully I will keep losing weight at a steady pace.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving. I know I have many things to be thankful for. I have a great husband whose love and encouragement I could not be without. An awesome family and the cutest grand-daughter in the whole world.
On Black Friday while everyone was shopping I had an appointment at the endocrinologist’s office to go over my test results and see where I am at. My doctor said that I lost 5 pounds and my A1C level is steady at 6.2 which is still considered prediabetic. My cholesterol is now at the normal range since being put on Lipitor my last visit. All my other tests are now normal. My thyroid has tiny cysts on it which we have to keep an eye on.
I am happy with these results but I am still battling all the other symptoms. My hair is still thinning. I try not to think about it too much but every time I run my hand through it I am reminded of how much it has thinned. With my husband’s research we found supplements to help fight some of the symptoms and they seem to be helping. I feel better and am less moody. I started using my CPAP machine at night because my sleep was so out of wack that I was waking up super tired and I was tired all day long and my snoring was keeping my husband up at night. Even though it is a pain to wear I keep pushing through because I do notice the difference and I don’t snore which helps him sleep. I still have a long way to go and realize that it may never go away. But as long as I keep fighting and keep pushing myself to be better today then I was yesterday and better tomorrow then I was today then I can be proud of myself. There have been times when I just gave in and let my body win for a while because I get tired of fighting. Today I chose me & I chose to fight once again. Just as long as I don’t lose hope I will keep pushing through.
This is my third day in a row of working out with weights after my mini vacation! I woke up with my upper body sore so today I did legs. I tweaked my normal workout to include drop sets because my husband said I should to add continuous stimulus to the muscle, intensity and burn more calories. I then did intervals on the treadmill. I feel great and have super energy. Tomorrow is a cardio day…. Resting from weights.
This was my weekend at a glance. I went on a hike on Saturday with my hubby and had a great time. It was challenging at times but I pushed through. On Sunday we worked out with our friends and she had us do HIIT intervals for warm up. I was pushing the sled back and forth which I really liked. I pushed myself and had an awesome workout. My goals have been to do different things when working out. I am tweaking my diet because I find my body likes to fight with me. It has always been a struggle with my PCOS to lose weight and so I have not always kept my promises to myself and have caved in. But I am promising myself from this day forward to keep pushing no matter what! Eventually my mind will win over my body and I will come out stronger than ever before.
My journey with PCOS is never-ending. No matter how I feel or what I do it is always lurking around the corner. Out of all the symptoms listed on the above chart I have all but 5. I try not to think about them at all but no matter what, they are still there, haunting me. You see, this is not who I see when I look in the mirror. I miss the girl I was before I developed PCOS. The one that had lots of energy, could eat anything I wanted, not gain weight, and didn’t have to worry about taking any medicines on a daily basis. Now, I have to take medicine to “keep the worst symptoms at bay” but am I really?
I started with 1 – 500 mg Metformine pill per day & since my last appointment to the endocrinologist I had to up it to 2 – 500 mg Metformine pill per day & I had to add 1 – Lipitor pill per day because no matter how I change my food my cholesterol just keeps creeping up. My doctor said if I don’t take the Lipitor my chances of having a heart attack and developing heart disease is greater because of my PCOS. I have to check my sugars everyday at different times of the day to make sure they are “normal for me” which is not the same as the “normal” person or someone without PCOS.
At least, I am one of the lucky ones that didn’t have any issues getting pregnant and the PCOS didn’t show up until after I had my last son. My weight is another issue with this. I lose weight & then I gain the weight back. It is frustrating all the time. I had never experienced the anxiety & depression until this year. Let me tell you it sucks! It paralyzes you. You want to hide yourself from the world. For a long time I would go to the gym and do cardio in the cinema room because it’s dark in there and noone can really see you. I couldn’t even go into the women’s weight room because the anxiety of being the “fattest girl” in the room was too much. My body suffered from not working out with the weights. Cardio for me does not help me to lose weight. I feel the strongest when I am lifting the weights and seeing my body get toned. Yet I couldn’t bring myself to be in the room I needed to be in. I lost muscle in these last 6 months. Today I finally went in and did arms and I had to start at the beginning. Those 25 pound weights felt like 50 pounds. Tomorrow I will go again. I will keep pushing myself to get better because I want to live. I need to live. I am taking it one day at a time.
2015 has been an amazing year so far. It started with our oldest son Michael getting married in December. Then on May 3rd our first grand-daughter was born. She is the first girl in the Lane family. On May 8th our son Michael graduated from college with a bachelor’s degree. On May 23 my husband competed in another bodybuilding competition where he placed 4th among the heavyweights, which he is a light heavyweight. On June 5th our youngest son Alex graduated high school. On June 12th I celebrated my 40th birthday and finally on June 13th my husband had a photo shoot in Maryland.
We drove up the east coast from Florida to Pennsylvania. That trip was a life changing trip. Before that I hated driving on the highways and was always nervous and anxious anytime I was going to travel. After those 18 1/2 hours I was stronger than ever. I can drive anywhere at any time. It tought me that I am stronger mentally & physically then I think.
Through all these things happening in my life. I have been sick, gotten lax with the gym & the depression really kicked into high gear. I think with so much going on, I just shut down. It took a lot to finally pull out of that state. I did not really let anyone know how I felt like I couldn’t breath. I felt alone and tired. So tired all the time. I barely had energy to go to work everyday. Working out & cooking were not an option. Then the day before my birthday I was super negative. My husband put on this amazing song on the radio by Kirk Franklin. And driving home the tears just fell. Then my husband without seeing the tears when we got home poured into me, uplifting me and my mood shifted, it changed! I had experienced bouts of depression before but they usually lasted only a couple of days. I know that depression is associated with the PCOS but I had never personally experienced it this bad.
I am glad it changed because I was so much happier on my birthday where before I didn’t even want to celebrate it. I am lucky to be surrounded by people who love me. I started to go back to the gym & am going back to my healthy eating and getting my life back on track. This is a new start & new beginning. Not only for me but also for my household. Each of my boys are now in adulthood making their own marks in life. My husband has his fitness & bodybuilding things in the works. And now, I get to focus on me and my changes and victories.
I have been sick off and on these past few months. My workouts & eating have been off. Being sick made me not put much effort in to anything and feeling depressed didn’t help matters. But now I’m starting to feel much better. I even worked out this week. Since it is Sunday and the start of a new week, I figured I would start it off right and back to my morning green smoothie I went.
This is called mango passion.
2 c spinach
2 c mango chunks
1 c pineapple
2 tsp fiber powder
2 scoops french vanilla protein powder
2 cups water but I add more once i add the fruit.